Arsip Bulanan: Mei 2012

Seeing You from a Distance

Pouring rain outside. I saw slippery sidewalk behind the foggy window in a corner of a fast food restaurant near my college. I do enjoyed this moment–seeing vehicle moved slowly while listening to some romantic love songs through my white earphone.

I was having my hot chocolate and crispy french fries when I saw you came through the main entrance to the smoking-area. You’re still like the last time I saw you. Did you know what’s going on my heart? Ya, it beats fast. It feels like there’s a butterfly in my stomach. The feeling’s always like this, it’s just the same since I saw you for the very first time. And seeing you accidentally in this unexpected time and place is under my control.

You were sucking your mild cigarette when a beautiful tall and long hair girl came to you.

I was just fine.

I just felt like the world was tumbling down in font of me.

I was just alright.

I just felt something hurt inside my heart.

Jealous?

YES!

But who am I to be jealous? You were never mine and we had nothing to be fight. We had nothing to be proud. We had nothing to be remember…

When I always found my self hoping can see you accidentally in any places, since then I didn’t. When I always found myself hoping can see you with no distance, since then I didn’t.

Because I learned that some things are better to be seen from a distance.

Yang Tak Terhapus

Seorang teman bercerita bahwa hubungannya dengan pacar terbarunya baru saja berakhir. Saya tidak terlalu heran mendengar kabar itu lantaran track recordnya dalam hal putus nyambung cukup tinggi. Tetapi kemudian seorang teman yang lain bertanya:

“Serius? Sama yang baru-baru itu kan?”
“iya” jawabnya singkat
“Terus? Gimana tuh foto sama postingan-postingan tentang dia di blogmu?”
“Gampang, tinggal dihapus aja kan”. Jawabnya enteng.

Ya ya ya. Memang suatu hal yang sangat mudah menghapus jejak-jejak hubungan dengan mantan kekasih di social media–foto-foto, tulisan, status update–dengan sekali klik. Tapi sadarkah, bahwa ada hal yang tak kan terhapus begitu saja, entah itu pahit ataupun manis.

Adalah kenangan.